Miss and Mess: Happy Mess Corner: Where My Purple Heart Lives

March 26, 2026

I am an ARMY, OT7 at heart, with a soft spot that constantly gets wrecked by Yoongi.

My story with BTS did not begin with a grand moment. It started quietly in 2016, through officemates who casually showed me Blood Sweat & Tears. I did not know it then, but that one video would open a door I was not ready to fully walk through yet.

Then came a moment I did not expect.

I saw them again on Weekly Idol, a show I do not usually watch. It just happened. I came across their episode on YouTube, and there they were. They were funny, chaotic, and so real. It felt different from the first time I saw them.

That moment stayed with me.

From there, I started searching for them. I watched more clips, looked them up on Google, and slowly learned their names, their personalities, and their music. What started as curiosity became something deeper. That was how it all truly began.

But life was loud back then.

I was just starting to build my career, carrying responsibilities that did not leave much room to fully dive into fangirl life. I stayed on the sidelines, quietly watching and feeling, but not as active as I wished I could be.

And maybe that is where one of my “misses” lives.

In 2017, during the Wings tour, I did not fight hard enough to be there. Instead, I watched from afar through videos uploaded by fellow ARMYs while I was on a ship going back to my province. I remember that feeling. It was a mix of awe, longing, and a quiet kind of regret.

But this story is not only about what I missed.

Because years later, I found my way back, stronger, more present, more here.

My peak did not come early. It came around 2019, when I allowed myself to fully embrace this joy.

And in 2025, I finally experienced it in person. I saw J-Hope live during Hope on the Stage. Not through a screen, but right there in the moment. Everything felt full circle.

This corner, my Happy Mess Corner, is where all of that lives.

The quiet beginnings.

The unexpected Weekly Idol moment.

The missed chances.

The growing love.

The healing.

Because even in the mess, there is happiness.

And even in the misses, I am still here, loving them fully.

❁ ❁ ❁

March 27, 2026

Last February 22, we attended a fan gathering to celebrate SOPE’s birthday. It was such a heartwarming experience, filled with laughter and genuine connections. ARMYs are incredibly generous, especially when it comes to freebies. There were so many photocards shared with everyone, making the celebration even more fun and memorable. We weren’t that lucky in the raffle, but it was still completely fine since the overall experience was more than enough to make the day special.